SPOILER ALERT: This post might potentially offend some with its utter political incorrectness. For that I apologize.
This morning as I am toweling myself dry after my shower, I look down and notice a little teeny tiny hair where it should not be.
It measures about 1/2 a centimetre long, and is quite thick at the root.
It’s growing out of the patch of skin that Dr Andrew Khoo, my plastic surgeon, used to recreate a new breast for me.
So, I have a hair on my new boob.
I whip out my tweezers and poise the tips over this offensive follicle — and at that moment, it strikes me that I’m looking at my tummy really up close and personal for the first time. Because it’s that belt of fat and skin that used to be under my belly button that’s now playing right breast. I stare at the skin, and realise, it’s really different from breast skin! Tummy skin has bigger pores, and the texture and feeling is totally different from the breast. Plus, small hairs have been known to grow on mine… Duh!
I recall seeing a photo of a lady who had had a TRAM flap done too. Unfortunately, her new boob bore stretch marks from the Area Formerly Known As Her Tummy. It looked like a bacon cookie in the centre of her breast. At the risk of sounding vain (which I am), I’m glad I don’t have that problem.
Also, it makes me realise that my new breast is actually growing! It’s alive! That’s how the hair can grow, right? Having a TRAM flap means that I have a reconstructed breast from my very own body, no synthetic parts. It may be a while before it feels “natural” to me, but at least I know it really is 100% me.
So, I put my tweezers away and leave my little teeny tiny hair where its new home now is. A teeny tiny reminder to be grateful for all things, big and small.
Aug 12, 2010 @ 11:29:00
OMG I totally went to inspect the difference between my tummy and boob skin and by golly you are right! Also, as a follow up to the inspection, how bad is it that the area currently known as my tummy can easily make 2-3 full-sized boobs?
Aug 13, 2010 @ 03:49:13
HAHAHA! So you see, there really is a reason for that “spare tyre”! I wore mine around for 10 years! Glad at least it was put to good use LOL!
Aug 13, 2010 @ 01:42:15
You are one funny gal! Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I am so glad to be able to read about it. =) Take care and speedy total recovery!
Jun 09, 2011 @ 01:47:53
well I am just considering reconstruction and was seriously thinking about this but I was worried what it would look like….thank for being real about it. Now prosthetics are looking better and better.
Jun 09, 2011 @ 02:52:35
They are! Aesthetics these days are really so advanced. I’m really happy with my breasts now — they look like a real pair. The only downside is I don’t have a right nipple anymore, but you can opt to have one created. There’s a doctor in the US who does a “key” cut and crafts a new nipple at the point of surgery (not as a 2nd surgery after your first reconstruction). I’m not sure any doctors here do it/have done it, but it’s worth asking.
Do, if you can afford the time and cost, do the reconstruction. I think it does wonders for a woman’s self-confidence.
Mar 24, 2012 @ 03:54:26
I had the flap done too. I have not been happy. Mine is pulling down i look weird.
Apr 06, 2012 @ 04:36:40
Thanks for your comment Michelle. Have you gone back to see your aesthetics surgeon? Perhaps he can suggest a follow-on surgery to help the way it looks?